You Kneek Profession

Oh, why does it ask for a title when I haven't even started writing?

Why I Like People Today:
Because love makes the world go 'round, baby. I don't really know why this popped into my head, because I'm actually having some big issues about the love thing and what it makes us do, but it certainly does keep things moving along. And it seems to move fairly quickly in the Mormon world. While one part of me screeches at this, the other part sits back and says, well, why not? Is it any easier when we are older? No. Are the chances better if we wait a very long time? Not really. Better to jump in knowing you need to figure it out, and then do it.

Sometimes you learn by doing - like this blog, and the clever way I just saved the first part before continuing. I'm on that laptop with the freezing problem, using that wireless card that seems to cause the frozen state. But what I'm trying to say is that you can't be sure about anything. Oh, yeah, isn't that clever? Not.

Let's start over.

So really I'm trying to figure out this whole life thing, like why someone would see it as such a problem that he would end his own life. I started to write "take his own life" and it didn't sound right. It isn't a taking, it's a stopping. It's deciding to end the game before it's over. I don't get it, because I think I have a lot of playing left, and I expect it to get really hairy. And when it gets that way, I'll be singing to myself the old Depeche Mode refrain: "It all seems so stupid, it makes me want to give up, but why should I give up when it all seems so stupid?"

I think I'm starting to accept the fact that my life will not be what I thought it would be. I'm also thinking that my career will be something I never imagined as well. I'm starting to think that I just might be happier with some kind of bizarre work schedule, something that takes me to places I didn't plan on visiting and introduces me to people I never imagined meeting. Somehow this feels like life, and it sounds like fun. Now I need to figure out how to get there, while becoming rich. Oh, yes, I haven't given up on my high school dream of finding a unique profession and becoming rich. It's just taking a lot longer to get there.

By the way, I am mostly loving Salt Lake City. Last night I saw yet another free concert - The Creation performed in a cathedral. Really, how can you beat that? The resources here are great - now if I could just make some friends...